Day 26 and more musings

If it were not only 25 degrees out, Fynn and I would be hitting the sidewalk to get some exercise. In fact, I might take him to the mall to walk today. I just know I need to get out of the house. I need some good exercise. I think the fact that I would like to exercise is progress. I’m counting it toward my goals.

I’ve also made a little progress on the TV front. Typically Tuesdays are my Law and Order marathon days. Not that I sit and watch it, but it’s always on in the background. Well, since Fynn has decided that when the TV is on he will stare at it without blinking, the TV has gone off and now we listen to music and play. Or I write and work while he scoots around or jumps in his bouncer or plays with his toys. Either way, it’s much better.

My soda cravings have been getting better. I told a friend the other day that Coca-Cola tastes like defeat, and it does. So, coffee for breakfast, milk for lunch, and water for dinner. Not that I don’t sneak every once in a while. Sometimes you have to sneak.

So I found a good link and I’m thinking about applying it’s advice every week and see if it works. “52 Ways to Lose a Pound a Week.” It was on MSN this morning. I really like the first one. “Ditch all or nothing thinking”. With all of my goals, I’m trying to do that. Just because I ate a cheeseburger, doesn’t mean my diet is over and I’ll start again next January…which has happened before. It just means that I have to eat a healthy lunch and dinner tomorrow and hopefully the day after that. Instead of dieting, I need to think about changing the way I eat. That takes time. Just like it takes time to change anything in your life.

This morning a friend of mine told me a story about relationships. Relationships with family, etc. That got me thinking about my own relationships with family. I think another goal of mine will be to strengthen my relationships this year. It’s easy to get caught up in your life, especially when a good chunk of your family live far away or are just as caught up in their own lives. Little gestures go a long way. Let’s see how many of those I can make this year.

23 days later

Goals aside for today. It has been a long weekend and it is only Saturday morning.

Nate is coming home today. Fynn and I are pretty excited about it. Well, let’s just say I’m excited about it. Fynn is chewing on a book right now.

18 – Monday

It feels like Tuesday. So far, so good with the goals. I’ve fallen off here and there on the soda goal, but all in all I’ve been doing really well. So, yay on that. I haven’t lost much weight, but I have been eating much better. It’s really a daily/weekly conscious effort. Nate and I have been talking a lot about buying a piece of exercise equipment for the house. I didn’t realize how difficult it would be to get a work out in…even if I’m working from home…with an 8-month-old baby. I think it’s a combination of having to keep the house picked up, the bottles washed, the laundry done, the dinner made, Fynn entertained, and working my part-time job. By the time Nate gets home I have no desire to go downstairs or to the gym. I know that when summer gets here, I am able to go to outside to walk with Fynn, but that doesn’t help Nate. If he goes to the gym after dinner…he’ll never see Fynn who goes to sleep around 7:30 PM. It’s such a pain to figure out.

My reading goal is really slipping. Must turn off the television, must turn off the television. It’s just so convenient.

A thoughtful 10.

I think that thoughtful is the word of the day. Yesterday Fynn and I had a nice relaxing Saturday. We spent some time with a good friend and her family. I’m always grateful for my friends who keep me company while Nate is traveling. I still haven’t figured out how I’m going to get everything done while Nate is away for 2 weeks in February. It’s not the grocery shopping – I can always order Peapod – it’s taking out the trash or doing the laundry. Because I live in a high-rise apartment building and not a house, all of these simple things turn into much larger challenges. Reason 126 that Nate and I need to buy a house. Now if we could only just get that money tree to produce 100 dollar bills, life would be so much easier.

My little guy is so close to crawling. He’s pretty good at creeping, especially on the hardwood floors in our apartment. It won’t be long until I’ll be chasing him around the apartment. I can’t complain, Fynn is a really great baby and Nate and I are really lucky to have him.

The dieting is going pretty well. I had a few small victories yesterday. I had to pack up Fynn and go for a ride in the car so that it wouldn’t be in the parking lot for snow removal. We drove around for 2 hours. By the time it was 12:00 I was starving and decided I was going to go to McDonalds for lunch….and I drove right by it. I had a turkey sandwich. Although a side of Pringles and Pepsi with a friend. But I’m glad I didn’t have a greasy cheeseburger, French fries, and then the Pringles and Pepsi. Although, the Pepsi kind of killed my sugary soda goal, but tomorrow is another day. Another day for cooking! I need to pick out a new recipe to try tomorrow night. Any suggestions?

My little guy has been going to sleep late into the evening, so I’ve struggled with my reading goal. Now that Nate is home for a little bit, it helps. The chores can be split up a little so I’m not washing bottles at midnight. I’m excited to get back to Traveler so I can move on to my first book of the challenge. It’s sitting on my dining room table taunting me as I write this.

I think 2010 needs to be the year of letting go. No more dwelling on mistakes or missed opportunities. Time to be happy right now and not worry so much about tomorrow. All my life I’ve wished for things to move quickly. I left high school a year early, I only spent a little time appreciating jobs before I wanted something new. I’m always thinking about what is going to happen 6 months or 10 years from now. I’m happy I’m home. I’m enjoying this time with Fynn. I’m enjoying watching him grow every day and learn new things. I hope this year creeps by. I don’t think I’ve ever wished for time to slow down in my entire life. I wish that now.

Have a great week everyone. At whatever speed you’d like it to travel.

January 8

All in all, today was not a bad start to the weekend. The house is marginally clean, I’ve already shoveled out my car, the baby has been taking actual naps today, and I got paid. I did get a little bit of work done as well. I have to get back to it but I thought I’d give an update here.

As far as dieting goes. I ate a little too much at dinner last night, but that’s the way it goes. Today I’ve been eating sensibly and I’m not starving. All in all, pretty good.

I’ve been watching way too much television lately. I’ve been working on putting on music because I don’t want the seven-month-old staring at the television, but it’s hard when you’re on your own all day. I suppose I should enjoy these talking-free days. I hear when they get older you can’t get any peace and quiet.

7

I’ve found that a cranky infant who will not take naps is a formidable opponent to New Year’s goals. One break through for the day was that after my second handful of Ruffles, they made their way to the trash where they belong. Also on a “positive” note, I got in some good exercise by shoveling.

Right now, the Fynn and I are taking a little break. He’s sitting in his exersaucer and raspberrying and rubbing his eyes in exhaustion and I’m sitting on the couch planning my next move. He seems happy at the moment so I’m waiting for the total meltdown that is on the way. He has only had 1 hour of sleep all day. Yikes.

Needless to say I believe I will be up late tonight working on my other job. I have a good 4 hours of work to get in and I’m not getting any closer to accomplishing it.

Well, I better see if I can tame the beast.

Day 6 = total failure

Riiiiiight. Day 6 has arrived and it has not gone well. I knew I was in trouble this morning when the coffee didn’t taste quite right. Luckily I was able to choke down a few gulps before I couldn’t take it anymore. I found a non-expired yogurt in the fridge for breakfast. Then, of course, there was a really good Clean House show on Style and Fynn was just too cuddly and fun to play with so work didn’t get accomplished in the morning. So, one thing led to another and I didn’t get my abs workout done. Basically I showered this morning and that was about it.

Then at lunch, I thought I had a good idea and I would eat good old Campbell’s Chicken Noodle Soup for lunch. That seemed like a good idea, soup and a half a glass of milk. I think that is where I went wrong because at about 3:00 PM I was STARVING and I was having the worst sugar let down. By 4:00 PM I was eating sugar packets and cookie toppings from Christmas. I’m not ashamed to say my addiction to sugar has come to that. I finally ate a buttered bagel. It was yummy.

At this point I realized that I had completely failed. So then we had cheeseburgers for dinner with Ruffles and a regular Red Bull. One good thing, it’s 10:50 PM and I’m not hungry and I’m doing the smartest thing I’ve done today. I’m drinking water.

Luckily, tomorrow is a new day and it’s a long year. And I had a great time playing with my sweet little baby today. That’s what counts. Sometimes you need a cuddle and snuggle day. Today was it. I’ll pick it up again tomorrow.

I didn’t forget my book club.

I did hit a bit of a snag with my reading goal. Not a bad snag, but a snag none the less. I have been “working on” Audrey Niffenegger’s The Time Traveler’s Wife. Needless to say I’m not finished with it. I do want to finish it so I’ll have to wait on the first book of my goal. So, for this post, I’ll talk about Time Traveler.

I’m going to be honest. This book makes me somewhat uncomfortable. It is a very interesting story and is uniquely set up with first person narration coming from two different characters.

Spoiler Alert! Don’t read any more if you haven’t read the book.

I’m only about 80 pages into the story. It is a love story between the time traveler (Henry) and Clare. The idea is that (Henry) actually met his wife, Clare, when she was a little girl. Now, I wouldn’t really automatically assume that it is a sexual relationship, but the Henry character keeps making allusions to that effect. It’s starting to creep me out just a little bit. I’m also beginning to sense that something a little more serious is going to happen between the two. Don’t spoil it if you’ve read the book.

The idea of the time traveler is a unique concept and I’m enjoying the book, despite the creepiness.

5 and the diet for me

I think I’ve found the perfect diet. I just saw it on TV. The “Taco Bell Drive Thru Diet.” You can’t make this stuff up people. I never thought I would see the day when Taco Bell is a health food chain. I wonder if the diet also includes a side of nachos. I’ll have to find out. Stay tuned.

Speaking of diets, I tried a neat little trick last night when I sat down with my spaghetti. I read about it in Self. Instead of putting my spaghetti on a plate, I put it in a bowl. I ate about half of what I normally eat at a sitting and I had another plate full of tomatoes and cucumber slices. Yummy! All prepared by my darling husband. Thanks, Nate!

I did the 10 minute 6-pack abs video again this morning. Ouch. I hope that means it’s working.

No sugary sodas today, but 4 sugar packs in my coffee this morning. Eeep. I’ll try two tomorrow.

Four.

Okay, so I’m adding a goal to my list. Save money. To that end, I have started collecting coupons and saving them in an old photo album I don’t use anymore. Maybe another goal that I should add is organizing my photos. But let’s not get too hasty. I need a goal for 2011.

I ventured out this evening to “spend” my coupons that I’ve saved on baby junk. I am quite proud of the fact that I only purchased items for which I received a coupon. You know what that means? Gold star on the 2010 goals! Woohoo! All of this started when I received the ever elusive Similac coupon from one of Nate’s coworkers. Plus, I’ve always kept coupons, but I just never use them. I hope I’m not becoming one of those creepy housewives. You’d tell me, right?

So, on the weight loss goal. I haven’t lost a pound. However, I did do a 15 minute abs workout on ExerciseTV OnDemand this morning. I think I should get at least a silver star for that. Oh, and I have not had a sugary soda today. I do, however, have a diet Red Bull directly to my left. At least it’s not a regular Red Bull, right?

I don’t have a lot of other exciting news for you. I need to get going on my reading challenge or 18 months will be over and I’ll have 1 book to show for it. Well, on that note, off to read. Bye now!