Cranky. Pants.

Fynn sure did wake up on the wrong side the bed today. Luckily, he went back to sleep at 8:30 AM so I could take a breather and get some coffee. Right at this moment I’m blogging while he watches Ice Age: Dawn of the Dinosaurs. Let’s just say we’re going to our respective corners to have some space. Do babies need space. Maybe mommies need space more than babies.

One thing I have going for me today is that he didn’t “win”. That’s the nice way Nate puts it when he comes home and the house is a complete wreck. The dishes are washed, the bed is made, and the chicken is marinating. So, Fynn “lost” today. Mommy won. That’s better.

I had my second private yoga session with my friend Melanie today. It was great. All of that stretching felt fantastic and she sure was working me out because I was seriously sweating. At Yoga! The little guy was really good, all things considered. He didn’t cry, he played with his toys, and he only got into everything during the last 1/2 hour. Hey, you can’t expect a baby to sit through a 75 minute yoga class and not get a little antsy.

I’m still thinking about my working dilema. Thank you, Olya and Shannon, for offering advice. I’m still trying to figure it out. I just need to sit down and do the math and figure out the schedule and what it’s worth to me.

Spinning….

Typically Tuesdays are bad days. For some reason Fynn is out of sorts, the house cleaning never gets done, and I barely make it out of my pajamas. Today was sort of like that until I finally regrouped 1:00 PM when Fynn and I went for a walk to the park. I’m so happy that summer is finally here. I always feel better after a nice long walk. Fynn always does better, too. I know he gets bored inside. He even went on the swings today. Wow. He really loved that.

So, I have to decide if I’m going back to work part time in September. And I have to decide soon if I have any hope of getting back into daycare. I know it won’t be bad. I’m looking at doing Tuesdays and Thursdays and Friday mornings. I feel like if I break it up I still get to spend a lot of time with him, and I won’t feel guilty for working during our quality time. Plus, I’d like him to play with other babies.

I did have one big victory today. Fynn went down early enough for me to get on the spin bike for a half and hour. It was a great workout. Plus, I’m feeling motivated to eat right lately. Nate and I are going to the store tomorrow to stock up on good food. I’ve been sick of scrounging around the house for something to eat during the day and finally settling on peanut butter and jelly. I cannot tell you how sick I am of peanut butter and jelly. Oh, and junk food. I didn’t think it could ever happen, but I’m really sick of junk food.

Well, off to read. I have to get back on track with my reading goal. Right now, I’m reading Beloved by Toni Morrison. I’m really loving it. I’ll have to blog more about it later. I’m still working on my National Book Club goal, but warming up with some books I’ve been meaning to read for a while. Either way, I’m reading. That’s a good sign.

Monday and tired

It was an interesting weekend. I had a great time with my friend at the spa on Friday. I didn’t know how much I needed that. Nate and I had a relaxing Friday night, we had fun with a friend on Saturday night, and I had a nice Mother’s Day! One little problem has crept into the weekend. Fynn’s sleeping schedule is completely messed up. A while back I mentioned that he might be dropping a nap. Since he seemed to be dropping that nap anyways, we tried to transition him to one nap, but that turned into a nap at 12:30 PM – 2:30 PM and then another nap at 7:30 PM – 8:30 PM (when we thought he was down for the night) and then he went to bed, finally, at 11:30 PM. Since he was up so late last night, again, I’m trying to add back in the morning siesta. I’m trying a 1 hour to 1 hour and 15 minute nap in the morning and another hour and a 1/2 at the most in the afternoon. I’m thinking he’s getting overtired, but then sleeping too much during the day.

All this sleeping stuff is really frustrating. I know all of you moms out there know exactly what I mean. There isn’t a ton you can do. You can try to keep a consistent schedule, but then they get a cold or start another round of teething. It’s exhausting. I’m hoping we get back to some kind of normal sleeping pattern soon. Luckily, he stays asleep once he goes down at 11 PM until 6:30 or 7:00 AM. Hmmmmm……I wish babies were easier. Ha! How many times do you think that has been uttered over the centuries?!

On and off the wagon at the exact same time…

So in the last two days I have been both on and off the wagon when it comes to my dieting goals. Yesterday I ate pretty well and I rode my new spin bike for 30 minutes. Speaking of spinning, I forgot how intense that workout can be. Only 15 minutes in and 1/2 way “up” my first “hill,” I thought I was going to pass out. I’m excited to jump on and ride again tonight. Which brings me back to my “off and on” goals issue. So today I started off pretty well, decent breakfast and lunch. I even went to my first private yoga session (which was amazing by the way – even with my 30 lb sidekick). Then I stopped at McDonalds on the way home and picked up a large Coke and 3 chocolate chip cookies. I then proceeded to eat several chips while watching “The Office” on Netflix. While I’m planning on riding again tonight, I think it’s going to be pretty difficult to burn off all of those extra calories.

That’s my MO lately. I’m not afraid to work hard when I exercise. In fact, I’m not afraid of doing it every day. I’ve just never really watched my eating very well. My plan right now is to get really religious with my daily exercise, and then really work on the food. For this week, I think I’m going to work just on breakfast. Once I get breakfast going well, I’ll move on to lunch and dinner.

I’m very excited about tomorrow! Last week a friend of mine invited me along on her yearly birthday massage ritual. Another good friend of mine is going to watch the little man while I get a massage and a manicure! Yay!

Given my recent back pain, my new goal is to “reclaim” my body. I told Nate the other night that I feel like 1 year and 9 months ago I lost control of my own body. Between being pregnant and taking care of Fynn, I really haven’t taken care of myself very well. I just need to start taking care of my body and my mind as well.

Here’s to a great weekend (and my first Mother’s Day)! I hope all you mommies out there have a great, relaxing weekend!

The end is near for morning naps

Although Fynn has decided to take a morning nap today (he didn’t go to sleep until 10 PM last night), I believe that the end is near for his morning naps. This is very sad. I usually don’t work during his morning siesta, but I do clean up the house, take a shower, and maybe grab a bite to eat. Not that his morning naps were ever really long. His typical A.M. nap is 45 minutes to an hour. But it is just long enough to get a couple things done. For the last 4 days, Fynn has been fighting and ultimately skipping his morning nap. Now I need to come up with strategies for the possible implications of this.

My pediatrician suggested that I lock him in the bathroom with me while a shower. Maybe I’ll give that one a try tomorrow. Of course, our bathroom floor is pretty gross. I figure if I clean the bathroom and remove the icky stuff (toilet brush and garbage pail) and clean the floor with a wet swiffer, it should be okay for him to crawl around in there as long as the saftely latch is on the toilet lid. Oh, fun times. If only he was a small child and he still fit in his bouncy seat or exersaucer. Alas.

Oh, the things you have to think about when you have kids.