Too tired this week.

I’ve been exhausted this week. I have this stupid cold that has been lingering on FOREVER. I also think that constant politics in the media is really draining. I mean, it’s like a negative energy in the air.

On the positive side, I’m down 16 ish pounds. I say ish because I hit this stupid plateau. I keep gaining and dropping one pound. So annoying! I checked out the Mayo Clinic website and they suggested dropping 200 calories out of my diet for a week or so and adding more exercise. Of course, I would like to add even a minimum amount of exercise but I feel like crap. I’m lucky that I’ve lost the weight I have given the fact that I’ve pretty much been sick since the second week of January. I’m hoping that this clears up this week.

Work has been going alright. The super busy part of my year has ebbed a little. It’s going to ramp back up, but it’s nice to have a little bit of a cool off time frame so I can get caught up on little projects.

Fynn has been doing great. I’m still wrestling with the nuk. Today was going to be THE day to stop with the nuk at naps, but we caved after only 15 minutes of Fynn yelling at us from the bedroom. I blame the sickness.

We’ll see what tomorrow holds.

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January 27 – One month! Woo hoo!

It has been one month since I started the Lose It diet. I’m down 9 pounds! 9! I’m so excited. I haven’t been this successful for a long time. I LOVE this website/app. I changed my goal. So, now I’m trying to get down to 135 pounds. I never was able to get below 140, so I decided I’m going to push myself to that. I’ve got 14 pounds to go!

Wish me luck!

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Tough week.

This week hasn’t been the most fun in the Kogler house. Poor little Fynn got sick on Tuesday, ran some pretty high fevers on Wednesday and Thursday, and now seems on the mend…though still not feeling well. And, of course, I woke up this morning feeling like my face was filled with gauze. So, I’m sick now, too. Luckily it’s Friday and Nate is going to try to get out early so he can come home and help me out. At least Fynn seems in good spirits.

This was also a really tough week for my diet. I stuck to it for the most part (I had one extra glass of chocolate milk last night), but it was really tough. It’s clear that I’m a stress eater. The more stressful the week became, the more I wanted a big cheeseburger. I resisted. Nate said that if I’m going to cheat, an extra glass of chocolate milk is probably a safe (and vitamin rich) choice.

All that said, I’m down a little over six pounds now and feel good (despite the yucky cold).

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January 17 – New Year’s Goals “Reboot”

So far so good! It’s January 17, and I haven’t had regular soda since Dec. 26. It feels awesome! In addition, I’ve lost a little over 5 pounds! Only 14 more to go to my first goal. I’m pretty happy about that. I’ve been logging my calories every day and attempting to work out, but it is still an uphill battle with my back problems. It’s a frustration, but I’m doing my best.

Just a quick update!

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A little non-politics….

Okay, so I really don’t like to blog about politics, and this blog is more about respect than politics. I was watching Bill Maher on Jay Leno last night and decided that I really, really don’t like politically driven talking heads. So after much thought, I’ve come up with a solution for how to deal with them. I’d like to gather up Bill Maher, Glenn Beck, Rachel Maddow, Rush Limbaugh, and every other person of the “political entertainment” persuasion and put them in a padded room together. I would not let them out until they agreed to the following code of conduct:

1. Treat others with the utmost respect – even if you do not agree with their point of view.
2. Do not accuse others of hate speech and follow with a monologue filled with your own hate speech. That is called hypocrisy.
3. Refrain from using every single logical fallacy you can think of while trying to make your argument. Repeat after me: I will not argue using ad hominem attacks, straw man, hasty generalizations, etc.

I really don’t think this is too much to ask. Sorry…just my non-political rant for the day. 🙂

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January 2

I had a few minor New Year’s Eve and New Year’s Day slip ups with my diet. Appetizers, pizza, chips…all stuff I shouldn’t be eating. Oh, and wine and champagne have a great deal of calories. The good news is that it’s January 2, and I’m back on track. The better news is that it’s Sunday and I have not had regular soda since last week. Pretty exciting for me considering I’m completely addicted to sugar.

So, today the goal is to get back on the spin bike (I have to start working off those New Year’s Celebration calories) and get organized for the week. The nice thing is that Nate is off tomorrow too. So we both start back at work on Tuesday.

Happy New Year, everyone!

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New Year’s “Goals” Reboot!

Well I can’t believe it, but another year is almost over! Just today and tomorrow left! I say, “Welcome 2011!” I’m hoping and praying that it is a better year for health and work. Along with the upcoming new year, I have some updates because I decided to start my resolutions early this year.

1. Losing weight. I’m happy to say that I’m only about 18 pounds from my goal this year. Apparently being completely stressed out helps with weight loss. I’m just kidding, but I started this week weighing in at 159 pounds. I’m happy to say that I’m now 157.6. So only about 18 pounds until my goal weight of 140. I’ve started a new diet using the Lose It! diet app and it is AWESOME. I love it. So 4 days down and I’m feeling good. On another note – I’ve been on the spin bike Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday…with plans to ride this afternoon. I’m feeling really motivated and good right now. 🙂 Way more motivated than I was last year at this time.

2. Soda consumption. I haven’t had any soda since Sunday. Not a drop. Only water and coffee. I’m not even craving it. Last night I went to a work party and I was still able to stay away from the sugary nectar. Again, very good progress pre-New Year’s Day! Yippy!

3. Television…this goal is still up in the air. Contemplating cancelling cable. Stay tuned.

So here’s to another New Year! Resolutions/Goals and all!

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Two a Days…

At about 7:00 PM, I was sitting on my couch watching The Office on Netflix. I had just finished unpacking, cleaning up, and eating dinner (not the healthiest dinner in the world, but I had eaten) when I decided i could just as easily watch The Office in my bedroom while riding the spin bike. It’s a good think that The Office episodes are only about 20 minutes long, because that is about all I could muster. It occurred to me that I hadn’t been really active since I hurt my back in August, and before that I hadn’t been very religious about working out. I just have to say that I’m in terrible shape. Luckily, my back didn’t hurt at all while I was exercising, and I was able to do my physical therapy abdominal workout after I was done. A very good sign.

As I was riding, I remembered something my physical therapist said. She told me that I don’t have to get my entire workout in at one time. Since I have the time this week, I’m going to try working out twice – 2 20-minute workouts – during the day. This week it shouldn’t be too hard. I’ll let you know how it goes.

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December 13 – Epic Fail

It’s December. How many of my New Year’s Resolutions have I completed? None. So sad. Good thing there is a New Year right around the corner. So New Year’s Goals – take 2! I think this time around I’m going to focus on one goal. That goal will be to work out at least 4 days a week. I fell off of that goal early in 2010, and my back pain as well as Fynn’s fall didn’t really help that goal.

I’ve decided not to wait to start that goal. So I’m declaring on my blog that I’m going to get on my exercise bike tonight.

I shall report back tomorrow. 🙂

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Exhaustion

It has been a rough week. When Nate left on Thursday, September 30, I knew it was going to be a rough trip. Fynn had only been in daycare for three weeks, I was still getting used to the schedule, and I’m still not physically at 100%. I knew I would struggle…and I did. Luckily, my son is a total sweetheart, and he is really easy on me. I believe that every aspect of my life was out of balance this week. My mom is having some health problems, I’m still having health problems, work is getting really busy, and my class has hit a low point. That doesn’t include the fights that erupt when Nate is out of town.

Of course, the fights are caused by the pure exhaustion that we are both feeling. He doesn’t think I understand. I don’t think he understands. Then we hit the impasse. I’m not sure if my “readers” know this about Nate and me, but we are very stubborn. I’m pretty convinced that I’m always right, and Nate “knows” he’s always right. The only thing that I have in my back pocket is that I’m a woman, so I’ve got “bitch” pretty much cornered in the house. Now don’t get all hot and bothered, women. You know exactly what I mean.

I hate being out of balance. It’s a crappy feeling. No one likes having their life pretty much upside down. I also think that this week was indicative of how overwhelmed I am. Between medical bills, credit card bills, daycare, and trying to save for a down payment on a house (that we are eventually going to have…maybe in 20 years), I’m exhausted. Like many women, I take care of the finances in the house. It’s stressful. I have to figure out how the bills are paid, when the bills are paid, and how we’re going to save for the future. I’m not sure why women always get stuck with this job. Nate once told me it’s because he’s the CEO and I’m the CFO. Well, I think I want to be the CEO for a while because it sounds like the CEO just gets to spend money and complain about why we don’t have it. Sounds about right…isn’t that what happens in corporations, as well?

Some things are good about being at home by myself (or with a toddler…who doesn’t speak). I get to read, watch whatever television I want, and think. Although that last one can get me in trouble. Sometimes I think too much. I think about everything that’s wrong with life. Don’t get me wrong; I live a pretty nice life. The problem is that I’m a perfectionist, so I can always think of things that I’m doing wrong. Parts of my life where I’m not living up to my potential. Problems in my relationships. I thought moms were supposed to be too tired to think about how badly they are doing in life.
Hey, moms out there. Why is it that men have no concept as to how tired watching a baby can make a person? I hear a lot of, “I’m sorry, Baby. That sucks.” “I’m sorry you’re tired.” “Just go to bed and don’t worry about the dishes.” As if I can just go to bed and leave food rotting on Fynn’s high chair tray. That is what scares me about leaving the boy at home alone with his daddy. What if he gets Botchulism? Or Leprosy…does anyone remember that Simpsons episode?

Luckily I have a lot of good friends who help me out while Nate’s away. It’s nice to know that you guys are out there.

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