Refocusing

Where’s the sun? This has been a terrible May. My mood has been in a steady downhill slide since we had that wonderful, glorious 80 degree day a while back. I mistakenly forgot which state I live in and assumed that spring had arrived and that the rest of spring would be just as glorious. That was stupid.

It probably doesn’t help that my back problems have been flaring up again. It’s so frustrating. I feel like I’m making some progress and – wham – I’m back to where I was three months ago. Back to a ton of Advil and icing my back. This time I haven’t been letting the back stuff slow me down too much. I’m still taking Fynn out to do things and just sucking it up. Movement is actually better for back problems than just lying around anyway.

Another thing that has come to a screeching halt is my weight-loss goals. I’ve been sneaking in crappy food. It’s not that I’m gaining weight – luckily – it’s just that I’ve stopped losing. To get a little motivation, I watched Biggest Loser last night. I was reminded once again that I have to stop bitching about the 10 pounds I need to lose and just put down the peanut M&Ms.

Given the fact that my back problems have resurfaced, I need to refocus my energy on working out. Increasing blood flow to herniated disks helps them heal…although they will never fully heal. At least it will keep the month-long flare ups at bay.

The good news is that I feel as though I’m still making progress on my goals. I’ve definitely been reading more. I have been avoiding regular soda, and for the most part I’ve been eating healthy food – at home, too! It’s a good time to refocus my energy. Once the crappy weather goes away, there will be plenty of time to get outside and get good exercise. I’m pretty confident that I will hit my goal by July 4th. Definitely before the family and I go out to California to visit Nate’s parents and family.

Wish me luck! And good luck on your goals, too!

Messy breakfast

I believe that my toddler thinks that yogurt is both a yummy dish and a face moisturizer. A few minutes ago, he was rubbing it all over his face and wearing his yogurt bowl as a hat. Alas, I’m still not used to sticky hands, face, and hair. Poor little kid gets a accosted by a wash cloth several times during the day. He may not be able to talk, yet, but I imagine him saying, “Oh, mom, stop…stop! STOP!”

Nate is on his way to Savannah this week. Fynn and I are on our own until Thursday night. I’m not entirely sure what the little guy and I are going to do this week. Today I think we’re going to stay in, do some playing, resting, and relaxing. Fynn, of course, has already begun dismantling our home. He’s very good at that.

Feeling like a writer monkey

For the most part, I love my job. I enjoy writing engaging and clear communications and I enjoy writing and editing. Lately, though, I’ve started to feel like a writer monkey. I’ve described this feeling to people in the past. I feel like a sponge that’s been all wrung out. It’s sad. Also, I’ve been feeling like the grammar girl lately. I don’t mind answering questions and proofreading. However, I do mind getting sent ugly copy that I have to “make good.” That sucks. That sucks a lot. I’m not a miracle worker.

Mondays and Toddlers

Last September, I made the decision to go back to work part time. I had taken about a year off to stay home with my baby. I did work from home for that time, but the hours were limited, and I was able to spend the majority of my time just taking care of him. For the most part, I loved it, but it did get lonely from time to time. When I did decide to go back, I chose to only work 3 days per week. Luckily the organization that I work for was very accommodating and let me do this. So during the week, I have every Monday and Wednesday off. That being said, I do work from time to time at home. My toddler still takes a lengthy nap in the afternoon so that’s not a problem. Every time I think I want to go back to work full time, I change my mind because I really love staying home with my little guy.

One of my favorite days to stay home with him is Monday. Usually it’s over the weekend that I think about going back to work, but then Monday comes and I change my mind. It’s just really fun to have another day off to be with him before I start my work week. I’m really looking forward to summer with my toddler. We love to go to the zoo. Mondays are especially quiet and he can run around as much as he likes.

Although I know that part time is not the ideal situation – especially when we’re trying to have some kind of routine. It’s hard to only go to daycare Tues, Thurs, Frid. However, we’ve made it work and he’s settled in nicely. Happy to be able to be with him and have a life of my own. Best of both worlds. I’m very blessed.